My AMAZING Upside Down Shepards Pie Recipe

Shepherd's Pie Recipe

I just wanted to make good on my promise of sharing recipes with you all. And this recipe is a KILLER one!! Cooking is one of those things that I love to do because it relaxes me. However, since I got sick over a year ago, I’ve come to HATE food because it can be the cause of a flare up for me. Which then means excruciating pain, constant nausea and vomiting, and a trip to the hospital in an ambulance which is traumatic in itself!

Soooooo… without further adieu, here it is. I hope you all LOVE it like my family does.

P.S. It’s actually 2 recipes in one because it includes my homemade mashed potatoes!

MASHED POTATO RECIPE (yields just enough for the pie recipe)


  • 6 or 7 large YUKON GOLD potatoes, peeled and chopped
  • 3/4 of a stick of unsalted butter
  • 1/2 to 1 whole cup of heavy cream (depends on how creamy you like your potatoes)
  • 1/4 to 1/2 cup of sour cream (depends on taste)
  • A handful of salt
  1. Get a big pot of water on the stove but don’t turn it on yet.
  2. Peel and chop potatoes into big chunks and throw into water.
  3. Turn stove on high to get water boiling. The trick to boiling potatoes is letting them come up to temperature slow and adding them to cold water does that. Once the water starts boiling, add the handful of salt to the water.
  4. Let boil for 20 minutes, stirring every so often. You want these potatoes as soft as you can get them. Once they’re done, drain them in a colander and then put them into a large bowl.
  5. Start off by adding the next ingredient on the list, the butter. Next, take a potato masher and mix the butter in by mashing and stirring the potatoes.
  6. Next, switch from the masher to an electric hand mixer. Start mixing in the heavy cream on medium speed, bits a time up to a whole cup depending on how creamy you like your taters!
  7. Once the heavy cream is mixed in, add the sour cream, again to taste. This is also where you can add however much salt and black pepper you like.


SHEPHERD’S PIE RECIPE (feeds up to 4 people)


  • 1.5 lbs ground beef (85/15 blend)
  • 1 large sweet onion, diced
  • 2 cups carrots, diced
  • 1/4 cup tomato paste
  • 1 cup beef stock
  • 2 tbsp flour
  • 3 tbsp sherry vinegar (could substitute balsamic or red wine vinegar)
  • 3 tbsp brown sugar
  • 2 tbsp honey
  • 2 tsp Italian seasoning
  • 1 tsp each salt and pepper, to taste
  • 3 tbsp butter
  1. Dice onions and carrots and get them into a saute pan with the butter over medium low to medium heat. Season with a little salt and pepper. You’re looking to caramelize these veggies a bit so saute them for about 10-15 minutes, until they’re nice and soft and golden brown.
  2. Next, add the ground beef to the pan with the veggies. Cook until meat is browned.
  3. Add tomato paste, italian seasoning, salt and pepper to the beef mixture and stir until paste is totally combined and melted.
  4. In a small bowl, mix the beef stock with the flour and stir into beef mixture.
  5. Next, add the sherry vinegar, honey, and brown sugar. Let simmer for 3-5 minutes or until it starts to thicken to your liking.
  6. Once thickened, take a taste and make sure it doesn’t need more salt, pepper, or even more brown sugar or honey. After that, it’s done.
  7. Now to assemble. LOL! There’s no assembly other than taking some mashed potatoes and plopping them on your plate. Then you just spoon over as much of the meat mixture as you like! The sauce created is DELICIOUS and it’s such a warm, comforting meal for a cold day (like today where it’s snowing like crazy here in MA, uggh)!


DISCLAIMER: The photo used on this post is NOT my recipe. I found this on which btw, their recipe is amaze balls too!

Codependency is REAL, people, and it’s just like addiction

picture of codependency of man and woman

Google’s definition of codependency: excessive emotional or psychological reliance on a partner, typically a partner who requires support due to an illness or addiction.


My fiancé and I have been together going on 10 years this coming March… and we love each other with a specialness I’ve never experienced before him. And he just moved out. Clearly we hit a rough patch in our relationship and when everything came to a head and the intensity level was turned up to 200, we knew we had to act. I don’t mean our relationship either because we are still very much together. We just couldn’t live with each other for a while so we’re taking a temporary break.


We have a very crazy history and are in recovery together from heroin addiction (him also from alcoholism). So we not only used together for many years, we also got sober together and have had to relearn how we are together as sober people. We met in high school and our group of friends was tight. But we both started doing drugs and drinking heavily at very young ages. For him, his first sip of beer came at 9 years old after his dad sat him on a kitchen counter and offered the malty libation to him. For me, I was 12 when my dad offered me my first hit of crack so neither of us really ever had a solid chance to stay AWAY from drugs/alcohol!


When he and I got together, I was 21 and he was 27, we were so madly in love with each other that we both fell in love while in other relationships. Say and judge how you will but you can’t help who and when you fall in love! We were both still so young and ended up continuing the addictions we already had before we got together while we were together! It was not pretty, but it was LOVE! We stuck by each other through HELL and back and no matter what happened, we always ended up together. Finally, we both got on methadone about 6 years ago (after many other failed attempts at getting on and off methadone) and something clicked because we’ve both  been sober ever since! But ok… now we’re sober together.


AHHHH!!! Who are “we”? Who am I? WHO IS HE? Oh my god, it was terrifying! We just didn’t know each other sober and our relationship also didn’t know “sober”! So we had to get to know each other all over again. And THAT wasn’t easy. Like at ALL!


It was in this time that we came to realize just how codependent we were on each other. For the last 5 years, we had used heroin together; we did EVERYTHING together; we split EVERYTHING we had; we kept each other alive (figuratively and literally when we were homeless together). We could barely spend 5 minutes without each other without feeling like we were both going to die! This is when we knew we needed to figure this thing out… but it wasn’t that simple.


We are still, 6 years later, fighting codependence (click here for a link on a great explanation of codependency and codependent relationships from Mental Health America). Even though we’ve spent vacations apart from each other, and other random nights apart, this break we’re taking has truly been one of the toughest things we’ve gone through as a couple. Sometimes you need a reminder of just how much you need and love someone and taking a break is a good way to do that… but it doesn’t make it any easier! That is where my relationship is at right now and I’m learning to become ok with that… to accept it completely and not let the sadness and codependency run my life. A couple years ago, I’d have fallen to absolute pieces if this happened because I’ve grown so much in recent years. Thank the gods for recovery, man! I mean that wholeheartedly!


Does anyone else have or has ever had a relationship like this or experienced codependency? It doesn’t necessarily have to be a significant other. It could be a parent, a sibling, or even a friend. I’d love to hear what you guys think about this!


Here are some great links to check out about how to overcome codependency: